marcus goes to school in about two years. when that happens, i’d like to do more riding and going around town. two years from now, my trading business could be in full swing and am making good cash flow off that. If so, i don’t have to work as bike messenger. i can just ride into the city whenever i feel like it, after the kids are off to school, then come home when they are about to go home. But being a bike messenger is something i want to experience. Right now, i am getting myself back into great riding shape, that in two years time, i’ll be able to do the job and enjoy it.
i just realized, i don’t know, or don’t have any friends here. I spend most of my time with my kids, at home. i only get to go out, by my self, at night. And that is to ride my bike. I don’t talk to people as i ride alone. I see a lot of people, but there is no interaction. I am concerned that this might lessen my people skills. But tolle says in his book, that to gain enlightenment, you do not need other people. You only need to be present in the now–seek ye first the kingdom of god.
i guess there’s nothing wrong with my situation. there is the internet. all my portal to the virtual world is in order and i have a great network in there, i reach out and help people thru yahoo answers. that is what i have now. so be it.
i ride tonight. rains have stopped. it’s bright and sunny outside. Back in my younger days, i’d be out riding, or working out, or just plain out of the house and on my bike on a cool weather like this. I’d be in the gym, probably on the beach, exploring nz… i miss those days. but that is living in the past. i have now. i will stay here and find the treasure here.